The week without u...

i wrote a seven days diary in a book.. da whole week without u.. i dono y.. this time.. i m so down.. so depressed.. even when i m sick.. i stand outside.. let da sun shines at me.. wish that.. i could c ur shadow laying on da floor.. filling up da empty parts in my life.. i noe.. u r enjoying urself in china.. i tried my best 2 take very good care of myself.. without thinking of u.. but.. i juz can't do it.. i still love u.. i noe.. n i think u do too.. but.. u may say that i m selfish.. but.. we r really from different world.. i can't give u wat u want.. i can't color ur life.. i can't make u happy.. loving me is torturing.. i m sorry.. every time i say i wanna break up.. its not bcoz i feel bored of u.. is.. i feel that i m useless.. not capable 2 b wit u.. its not easy 2 say.. i wanna break.. its hard.. real hard decision.. but.. this is a result 4 our relationship.. wats da point of delaying.. end it now.. it might b better 4 u.. isn't it?!