is ours or only my BLOG?!

hey.. dun make this blog so blank.. i noe u hav lots of things 2 tell me.. dare not say it out?! type it here.. k? dun take it urself.. i m already very sad liao.. u knot b lyk me.. i told u rite?! muz b still ben ben de.. mei yi tian yi yang kai xin.. yi yang ke ai.. da ying wo a.. hao bu hao? gou gou shou.. k?

worst day eva..

as a bf.. i cant celebrate wit u.. wtv u said.. did u eva think abt me.? do u noe how i feel.. if yes.. y u still do so.. i already do wtv i can le la.. wtf summore u want?! ha?!

happy birthday..

happy birthday yan.. i really dono wat r u thinking abt.. u say u luv me.. but dun let me celebrate b'day wit u.. r u sure u still luv me.. according 2 da msg.. i dun really think so.. i bought a present for u.. but now.. i.. dun play wit my feelings le la.. luv den say luv.. if not.. B.U. oso ok de.. k?!

whole week of sadness..

y nvr post blog liao de.. so long liao..

i m really sorry.. i had no choice..

sry.. i really dowan 2 take this step.. bt u forced me 2.. let go this relationship ba.. u might be relieved.. seriously.. ben dan lao poh.. wo zhu fu ni.. mei you le wo.. ni ye yao tian tian yi yang kai xin.. yi yang ben o.. yong yuan ai ni.. muack!

i m.. u juz wont understand..

i m sry.. i dono y.. i take the job very very serious.. u wont understand y i need that money.. but.. i need it much more than anyone in d entire world..

sorry..

not that i dun appreciate ur present.. i m.. stunned by da present.. if not u think i will hug u till so.. gek dong.. i dun think u realise that tears were flowing out from my eyes ba.. u noe la.. i very oi min de ma.. so.. got touched oso wont show.. zha u a bit.. juz wanna stay myself cheerful.. dowan cry.. i really feel that i don't suit u.. i really think so.. i.. i m sorry.. i dun wanna lose u.. but.. wat can i do.. its juz da matter of time.. da girl.. ya.. if i really going wit da gal.. u think i will make u ask so soon ma?! no.. dun think so much le la.. k? i will really treasure this relationship de.. u yesterday got pain pain ma?! lol.. =P

miss u...

The days pass so slow when im not wid u... eventhought we jz seen each other... i cant stop missing u. I felt really really useless. I cant even give u a proper present. Sorry dat i cried so much. I promise i wont cry again... only when u r there beside me. I noe i've been disobeying. I make u sad... angry... disappointed... but how i hope u would understand me. I need an interest... just like u like playing computer games. It is not ur fault for controlling me... it is my fault 4 being disobedient. I'm sorry. Will u forgive me? I jz have u back 1 day. I dun want to leave u again. I feel really sad when u talk about that girl. Eventhough i dunno who is dat... but... i really hope u'll care about my feelings. U can joke about other stuff... but no... dun ever joke about our relationship. I never treated u like a toy... i wont throw u when i dun want u... because i need u... every second in my life... Until my heart beat stops... I wont forget u...

The week without u...

i wrote a seven days diary in a book.. da whole week without u.. i dono y.. this time.. i m so down.. so depressed.. even when i m sick.. i stand outside.. let da sun shines at me.. wish that.. i could c ur shadow laying on da floor.. filling up da empty parts in my life.. i noe.. u r enjoying urself in china.. i tried my best 2 take very good care of myself.. without thinking of u.. but.. i juz can't do it.. i still love u.. i noe.. n i think u do too.. but.. u may say that i m selfish.. but.. we r really from different world.. i can't give u wat u want.. i can't color ur life.. i can't make u happy.. loving me is torturing.. i m sorry.. every time i say i wanna break up.. its not bcoz i feel bored of u.. is.. i feel that i m useless.. not capable 2 b wit u.. its not easy 2 say.. i wanna break.. its hard.. real hard decision.. but.. this is a result 4 our relationship.. wats da point of delaying.. end it now.. it might b better 4 u.. isn't it?!